Really?

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming. Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

Cheese

My mind is going to melt if I dont stop thinking about the whirlwind which is going on around me just now.

So I got over my Flickr fear. Good thing really as I quite like those memorable pieces of paper. Not as much now as I finaly moved to digital and wooooweee what have I been missing! I have always been snap happy. I have about 10 years of my life (in chronological order of course) in photo albums back home so its nice I can keep up the tradition.

Im still not paying for an upgrade though...

Cheese!

Left or Right?

It's been a strange ol' week already.

Brit Camp stresses come and go in waves….I go from extremes of 'Yup, everything is tip top' to 'Oh my god we really need to know what's happening here' to 'It will be all good'.

I minor costume drama occurred last night when I came to the conclusion that I had nothing to wear. Which of course is lies. But you never can have enough costumes. So at one point last night I was sitting on my bed, tutu-ed up with my broken bright pink shower scrunchie wrapped round my leg/head/arse debating if this could possibly merit some kind of costume. Not really – I looked like some sort of imitation raver who has a thing for cleaning cloths.

I have become the wedding agony aunt for my boss who is putting on one of the most plush occasions I have been invited too. Along with handing out daily love advice to a very horny new colleague.

Edinburgh is now full steam ahead with its festival goings on. Stages are being put up everywhere and the tourists are taking over the city. Not a day goes by when I don't receive an invite to something. Which of course plays on my conscious that I have to knock back all of them. Being spontaneous is great but I'm afraid 3 weeks before I head off on my adventure. My friends understand I'm sure but it doesn't make it any easier when you want to go out to play and feel awful that every sentence starts…..Dude, its Burning Man in 3 weeks.

But I'm still receiving the invites so that's got to mean something! Its just the case of balance. As long as I get to see the key people before I go then I will be happy. I miss not being able to spend time with them in August. But the good thing is most of them are as busy as I am and also feel slightly guilty that's sometimes we should see more of each other. But I think this is the case with every group of friends. Most of us are hitting that time in our lives that we are either going off in another direction, getting hitched or simply realising what we want to get out of our lives.

The Gullane parental unit is also taking a bit of getting used to my lack of spare time recently. With mum now a lady of leisure she has time on her side. I also get the vibes that she isn't too happy about my adventures and/or future plans. I think its just not being able to understand why I am doing things and also the need for me to do things. And its just not all to do with this thing in the desert. The wandering man however understands, he also has the sense of adventure and making the most of your time you have on this planet. Maybe that's also a reason why mum is digging her heels in a little as well. Like father like daughter….she divorced the man but she still has his daughter with obvious traits from her ex husband! I'm just not sure. I don't see the need to explain my actions to anyone anymore. Its my life and if I want to do something then 90% of the time I will just do it. Or with the rock solid support of my friends who understand certain situations. Maybe I'm getting selfish or maybe I'm just realising that I rated myself as the second most important person in my life rather than the first. My life was on hold because of various factors in some very crucial years and I'm now making up for it. But in all honesty. My parents lives never changed at all when I was born. They still did things they wanted to do regardless of having a child. Even if that did mean leaving me with the neighbours! So why should I change some plans I have for myself to keep them happy? My family always looked after number one and its hard to suddenly deal with the change of tune and wanting to know everything I have planned for my life and giving their 2p on it.

Hmmm I'm thinking the above is my monthly rant fuelled by my hormones. I feel better though. Even if it does reflect I'm a selfish bitch (sorry).

*That was my 10am rant at work - clearly woke up on the wrong side of bed*